Wow, it's been forever since I've written anything. I'm still with the same guy and still wishing our sex life was better. ... but w/e things are working for now.

Anyway, I had the best fantasy while I was masturbating today.  I was imagining a threesome with a beautiful girl and a guy with enough libido to service both of us and then some. Then what I realized was that what I was really wanting was a relationship with them. Not just sex. I think it would be awesome to have a boyfriend and a girlfriend that you live with. Have them to hang out with, date, sleep next to, watch T.V. with.  Just everything. Every normal everyday common joys.  Not to mention the mind-blowing sex.

Then I wondered if such a relationship is possible. And if so how does one get into that one of those? How would you build enough trust for there to be no resentment that is often found in repeated threesome sex?  Thing is, I don't just want the sex. I want the companion ship of both a man and a woman. 

Is there anyone else out there who feels the same?

why doesn't he love me as much as he loves porn?

What's your favorite color gummy bear?  Red
 
What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex's body?  Lips/smile
 
Have you ever made up/sang a song for someone you cared about?  yes
 
Ever had a song sang about/for you?  no
 
Is there a baby in the room with you right now?  no - weird question
 
Do you know how to dance?  yes
 
Where do you sing the most, in the car, the shower or other?  anywhere and time there's a song i know playing
 
What is your favorite thing that is green?  Aarons eyes
 
What did your last text message say?  "yes I am"
 
Boxers, briefs or boxer briefs?  boxer briefs
 
What is your middle name?  Isobel
 
What is the way to your heart? honesty and caring
 
What do you smell like?  right this second? clean PJ's
 
What's in your pocket?  PJ's dont have pockets
 
Anything in your mouth?  no
 
Ever hurt yourself playing Wii?  no
 
Do you have freckles?  a few
 
How many languages can you say "Hello" in?  4
 
What's the last movie you saw in the theater?  Um, i should remember this but I cant... oh wait, Watchmen. And man was that ever a lot of blue cock!
 
Ever jumped/fallen/been pushed in a pool with your clothes on?  no
 
Are you wearing any clothes that you wore yesterday?  no
 
Name a song that you know all the words to:  The song that never ends
 
Are you in love with someone right now?  possibly *grins*
 
What's the last thing you watched on TV?  Poker tournament
 
What's the last video game you played?  Wall-e on my PSP
 
Who is your daddy and what does he do?  My daddy??? Well my Father is Philip and he's a property manager.
 
Can you do the alphabet in sign language?  yes
 
Do you have an unkle named Joe?  no
 
What word do you use when people pass gas?  LOL when I was little I said Turtle...now I just say fart.
 
Do you wear glasses?  yes or contacts
 
What can you hear right now?  the strike of the keys as I type my answers.
 
Did you feel better or worse or the same yesterday?  Worse... well maybe the same
 
Ever been overseas?  I've been to foreign countries that I had to cross a sea to get to... but not like England or Asia if that's what ur talking about.
 
What are your plans for today?  Dye my mom's hair, write out a couple of bills, do laundry.. DAMN! I shoulda started that already.
 
How long have you had MySpace?  I dunno, couple of years.
 
What was your favorite childhood show?  I dunno that I have a favorite.
 
Are you close to your siblings?  Yes
 
What was your first job?  Movie theather
 
Do you bite your nails?  only when they start to break and I dont have clippers
 
Do you like your feet?  yes - again what a weird question.
 
Do you sleep well at night? most of the time.

maybe I'm over analyzing... but...

 

I say "I miss you" he says ...."Thank you". 

 

WTF?

Oh!  and he also suggested that I get a toy that reaches my g-spot so that he doesnt have to pleasure me so often - and I could do it myself.  I"m like hello, I'm not stupid I know I could do all the pleasuring myself.  I want us to be together.  sombody help.  give me advice.